My biggest problem is that if I don't want to do something, if I'm not interested in it, it's extraordinarily hard to actually get myself to do it. I'll spend ten minutes staring off into space thinking about how I don't want to write a paper that's due tomorrow. I can't seem to realize that whether I want to or not, it doesn't change the fact that the paper is still due. Argh.
I have a huge pile of coursework that I need to do, but I literally cannot move. Maybe I'm overwhelmed. Maybe I don't know where to start. Maybe I'm insecure. In addition to lazy, I'm also the type of student that assumes she will be in the bottom of the classlist when it comes to grades or work quality. The thing is, I'm not. Ever. Maybe I'm actually secretly very arrogant about my work quality that it makes me feel like I can shirk responsibility until the very last second because I know it will still be good.
Maybe I should just go write that goddamn paper.
